Being with him was like being alone underwater - everything was slow; nothing counted; I could not be harmed; I would feel dry and cold when I resurfaced. Ben Marcus More Quotes by Ben Marcus More Quotes From Ben Marcus Spelling is a way to make words safe, at least for now, until another technology appears to soften attacks launched from the mouth. Ben Marcus technology safe mouths It amazes me that parents are allowed to raise kids. There's so much power and often very little accountability. Ben Marcus accountability parent kids Eventually you stop paying attention to your own feelings when there's nothing to be done about them. Ben Marcus done feelings attention With students, one is often in the position where you have to be authoritative about what they're doing and connected to some principle. I prefer not really knowing the answer to anything interesting and I try to encourage that in teaching. If I start to feel certain about something my curiosity goes away, my mind shuts down. I'm sure that's not always true, it's stupid to generalise. Ben Marcus teaching stupid interesting When I started writing at 18 or 19, I had a fear of anything autobiographical, but I've come to realise that my writing is very autobiographical at the emotional level. Ben Marcus levels emotional writing Among other things, autoimmune disorders are an induction into a world of unstable information and no reliable expertise. Ben Marcus information disorder world A self needed to spill out sometimes, a body should show evidence of what the hell went on inside it. Ben Marcus body self sometimes To me one of the amazing technologies of writing is the way it can listen in on thoughts. I don't feel that that's natural to other art forms in the same way. Ben Marcus technology writing art Machineries of reason, machineries of conduct, machineries of virtue. 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Ben Marcus darkness book thinking I don't like real places, but I don't like imagined ones either. I feel like I'm looking for some mixture and it's very hard for me to say because I like to use real place names because there's an uncanny feeling to them, but at the same time I don't ever really try to make them plausible. Sometimes I like to use them as a way to hide in plain sight a little bit, because to me a very exotic or imagined setting has a lot of weight and a lot of burden to it, and it doesn't suit me, but a real place seems to have its own weird legacy, so I don't know what the choice is? Ben Marcus choices real feelings I'm attracted to how fraught the parent-child relationship is, swerving so easily between love and hostility, with almost no plausible way to end, unless someone dies. Ben Marcus parent children way
