He's comming to meet me on Sun. Cant wait!!... Please God let him love me!!... This could be it [followed by five happy faces].... Hes going to publish my pictures Im so glad I didn't sleep with him either!... I hate for men to want sex all the time. I hate sex anyway. (1992, diary entry as she prepares for a meeting with Paul Marciano, head of Guess.)

Anna Nicole Smith

Categorized in : Sex Sleep Hate

It's very expensive to be me. It's terrible the things I have to do to be me.

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terrible expensive

For some reason, people think I am this terrible person and it really hurts me to hear that. I am just doing the best I know how to.

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hurt people thinking

I'm sick of being accused of gold-digging. It just so happens I get turned on by liver spots.

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digging sick gold

A ghost would crawl up my leg and have sex with me at an apartment a long time ago in Texas. I used to think it was my boyfriend, and one day I woke up and it wasn't. I was freaked out about it, but then I was, like, 'Well, you know what? He's never hurt me and he just gave me some amazing sex, so I have no problem.

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hurt sex thinking

I've been craving peanut butter-and-mayonnaise fried cheese sandwiches.

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mayonnaise cheese-sandwiches peanut-butter

It's very expensive to be me.

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expensive

Nobody has ever respected me and done things for me and loved me. So when Howard (former husband J. Howard Marshall II) came along, it was a blessing. He is the only person in my life who does not care about what other people say about me. He truly loves me and I love him for it.

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i-love-him husband blessing

I want to be the new Marilyn Monroe and find my own Clark Gable.

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my-own want

I can't eat more than six hundred dollars worth of food.

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dollars hundred six

I was 23, and he was 86. I saw a very sick man. I just wanted to just talk with him. There was no physical attraction at all. He was very much attracted to me.

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saws sick men

I finally feel like I'm becoming somebody. I really think like I can do something. I just know I'm going to be an actress. I want it so bad.

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actresses want thinking

Men don't even ask me out. I can't remember the last time I was asked out on a date, and I'm talking years here. I spend my life more and more alone.

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talking men years

I just feel a connection with Marilyn Monroe. I just love her. I just completely feel what she went through.

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connections feels

I never thought to ever ask for money. I was so stupid.

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asks stupid

I don't understand why God took him and didn't take me.

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take-me

Vickie Lynn Hogan is my birth certificate's name.

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certificates birth names

Living in a small town, I knew everybody and everybody knew me.

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small-town-life small-town towns

I just know I'm going to be an actress. I want it so bad.

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actresses knows want

Marrying into money was not a good thing for me.

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marriage good-things money

I couldn't make ends meet. I tried Red Lobster. I tried Wal-Mart. I tried all these places and I couldn't make it. I couldn't. So, I tried this gentlemen's club, and, you know, I worked there, and it was just awful in those places. It was terrible.

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clubs gentleman lobster