When I was writing, I wanted every word to be not only deliberate, but musical. Precious.

Vivek Shraya

Categorized in : Writing Wanted Musical

I have been and continue to be committed to art as a tool to ignite, comfort, and discomfort.

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Of course, I can't separate my queerness from my brownness - if anything, my queerness amplifies my brownness, and vice versa - but I spent so much of my early twenties trying to erase my differences, often without awareness of what I was doing.

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I couldn't write about love without writing about hate - specifically, how the experience of hatred embeds itself in the body and prevents love from entering or leaving.

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It's exciting to consider how art, in its ability to reveal, can be ahead of the artist.

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When I wouldn't leave home without my blue contacts or when I was bleaching my hair, I didn't have the language to articulate that I was trying to assimilate to whiteness. If anything, I was trying to "look normal."

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I feel like I have had to catch up to the art I've made, and learn from the protagonists I have written, especially in relation to gender.

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In poetry, I didn't have to provide resolution. I could ask hard questions without feeling responsible for the answers.

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As a person of color, I know race can't be stripped from admiration or preference.

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My intention was never to write a "trans novel" - which is perhaps an effective strategy for writing a trans novel.

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Should I be collaborating with artists of color solely because of their race and my politics? This question is weighted with my own worry that I have been invited to speak or collaborate solely because of my race, and not because of my abilities.

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As a brown artist, I have mixed feelings about my relationship to art and my "responsibilities" post-Trump.

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I continue to explore poetry.

I have always considered the aesthetic of a project, including press photos, as a means to further the message of the art itself.

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As a general rule, I tend to collaborate with artists whose work I admire.

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In my thirties, I have felt a greater urgency to make art that highlights what it feels like to be racialized, likely due to living in a country that obscures our racism with the idea of "multiculturalism."

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If anything, I have witnessed the ways my art travels, or is rendered more accessible, when sanctioned by or connected to white artists.

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Despite the fact that I'm not highly skilled in any visual art, aesthetics have always played a strong role in my art, including my first albums.

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I am more likely to get paid for my art if it's presented alongside a white artist, so the questions around value and agency arise: What choices should I make, or do I have to make, if I want to be compensated for my work? Why isn't my art valued on its own?

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I didn't want to give the white reader an opportunity to think of racism as imaginary - a sentiment that is already a central barrier in addressing the problem.

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Generally, I start by observing the existing and popular narratives in my social spheres and media, and the pressures I face in my own life experiences. As someone who is "newly" trans, I am constantly thinking about what the dominant narratives are around transness, how my work can push against these narratives, and how it already falls into these traps.

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