[ I have ] nightmares trying to figure out how I got there, it's frustrating because I didn't do any drugs that night. I don't know [ what caused it ]. Whatever someone slipped me, it was damn good. There was some cocaine and something else in my system, but I didn't do anything that night. It's kind of hard for people to believe that when you have a reputation for doing drugs, so that's one thing that hopefully will get cleared up one day about what happened.