If they're all so brilliant and I'm such an affirmative-action hire, how come they didn't catch me? Jayson Blair More Quotes by Jayson Blair More Quotes From Jayson Blair When we report stories, we don't just want to talk to people who did the right thing. We want to talk to people who did the wrong thing. Jayson Blair stories want people I believe my own demons would have caught up with me regardless of my race and regardless of whether I worked at 'The Times. Jayson Blair demon race believe I don't know how one would define an affirmative-action hire. I ultimately do not know what role race played in my hiring. Jayson Blair roles race action I used to walk around saying that I'm just another black man without a college degree. Jayson Blair black college men I think people can learn from my experience - you know, any young people who are under pressure, whether you work on Wall Street or you work in a factory in Alabama, and young journalists. Jayson Blair wall people thinking It's hard to say what role race really played in my case. Jayson Blair cases roles race I seek to be authentic and engaging, using my own experiences, being as vulnerable as I ask my clients to be, to enhance the process. Jayson Blair clients vulnerable process I feel like I delivered a blow, an unfortunate blow to a profession that not only did I personally love doing but that I value for society. Jayson Blair unfortunate blow feels I have lived a life that has been beautiful and painful at some moments. But I am convinced others can learn how to control a certain kind of rage that bubbles up in many Americans, particularly, but not limited to, women, blacks, and other minorities. Jayson Blair minorities kind beautiful People in the news media after I got caught said how could you have not caught this guy? He had 50 corrections in four years. That's a lot of corrections. Well what they failed to look at is how many stories there were and out of 700 plus stories, 50 corrections is not a high amount. Jayson Blair media people years I fooled some of the most brilliant people in journalism. Jayson Blair journalism brilliant people Once I had a better beat, I needed to have an even better one. And somewhere in that climbing, I lost sight of, sort of, my moral and ethical underpinnings. Jayson Blair climbing moral sight You know I am done lying. Obscuring the truth is no longer something I have any interest in doing. I want it all to come out. The good, the bad, the ugly. Jayson Blair ugly done lying It's very painful to have something that's not true written about you. Jayson Blair written painful Racism built me into a person that was set up to be self-destructive. Jayson Blair persons racism self One of my weaknesses happens to be lying, and I could tell you that I'm never going to lie again in my life, but that would be a lie. Jayson Blair weakness would-be lying Some people it seems to me would like for me to crawl in a hole and disappear forever. That's just not in my nature. Jayson Blair disappear forever people Well the first thing I'd say is that I'm not sure exactly what I'm supposed to do to show my remorse other than to say that I'm remorseful. Jayson Blair not-sure shows firsts I can't say anything other than the fact that I feel a range of emotions including guilt, shame, sadness, betrayal, freedom and appreciation for those who have stood by me, been tough on me, and have taken the time to understand that there is a deeper story and not to believe everything they read in the newspapers. Jayson Blair betrayal appreciation believe I am making amends and seeking forgiveness. My only hope is that some good can come out of my situation. Jayson Blair amends making-amends situation
