In the middle of L.A.'s sunny non-winter, I need to sit in a dark closet to feel right. Gayle Forman More Quotes by Gayle Forman More Quotes From Gayle Forman When the sun shines, you let it shine on you Gayle Forman shine-onshiningsun Life is a big fat gigantic stinking mess, that's the beauty of it, too. Gayle Forman fatsbigslife-is But then Mason touches my neck, to the spot on it where the cut from that night has since healed, and I pull away. He was right, after all; it didn't leave a scar, though part of me wishes it had. At least I'd have some evidence, some justification of this permanence. Stains are even worse when you're the only one who can see them. Gayle Forman cuttingwishnight I want to ask him where that kitchen is. Where he's from. But he seems guarded. Or maybe it's me. Maybe making friends is a specific skill, and I missed the lesson. Gayle Forman making-friendskitchenskills But still, I find the need to remind myself of the temporariness of a day, to reassure myself that I got through yesterday, I'll get through today. Gayle Forman yesterdaytodayneeds ...being Lulu, it made me realize that all my life I've been living in a small, square room, with no windows and no doors. And I was fine. I was happy, even. I thought. Then someone came along and showed me there was a door in the room. One that I'd never even seen before. Then he opened it for me. Held my hand as I walked through it. And for one perfect day, I was on the other side. I was somewhere else. Someone else. And then he was gone, and I was thrown back into my little room. And now, no matter what I do, I can't seem to find that door. Gayle Forman perfect-daysdoorshands I don't know who I am. Or maybe I do know who I am and I just don't want to be her anymore. Gayle Forman who-i-amknowswant It's not that people like sad movies that make us feel like, "Oh, my god, what a bummer." We like emotionally moving experiences, where you feel like a slightly different person and you see the world a little different, after you finish. It lets you see your own life, in a different way, and it actually makes you feel really good. And even though there might be sad content making this happen, the feeling that you're left with is one that is quite good, quite hopeful, clarifying and uplifting. Gayle Forman upliftingpeoplemoving If you stay, I'll do whatever you want. I'll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I'll do that, too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful, that maybe it'd be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I'd do it. I can lose you like that if I don't lose you today. I'll let you go. If you stay. Gayle Forman going-awaynew-yorktalking What would you do if you had to choose? Gayle Forman ifs Life might take you down different roads. But each of you gets to decide which one to take. Gayle Forman if-i-staydifferentmight In the calculus of feelings, you never really know how one person's absence will affect you more than another's. Gayle Forman calculusabsencefeelings But what if Shakespeare― and Hamlet― were asking the wrong question? What if the real question is not whether to be, but how to be? Gayle Forman what-ifreallife Sleep would be so welcome. A warm blanket of black to erase everything else. Sleep without dreams. I've heard people talk about the sleep of the dead. Is that what death would feel like? The nicest, warmest, heaviest never-ending nap? If that's what it's like, I wouldn't mind. If that's what dying is like, I wouldn't mind that at all. Gayle Forman napsdreamsleep Concert' doesn’t mean standing up like a target in front of thousands of strangers. It means coming together. It means harmony. Gayle Forman targettogethermean But seventeen is an inconvenient time to fall in love. Gayle Forman seventeenfalling-in-lovefall The music is the void. And you're the reason why. Gayle Forman voidreasonreason-why Sometimes fate or life or whatever you want to call it, leaves a door a little open and you walk through it. But sometimes it locks the door and you have to find the key, or pick the lock, or knock the damn thing down. And sometimes, it doesn’t even show you the door, and you have to build it yourself. Gayle Forman fatekeysdoors Her hands were freezing, just like they always were, so I warmed them, just like I always did. Gayle Forman freezinghands Are you happy in your misery? Resting peaceful in desolation? It’s the final tie that binds us The sole source of my consolation" “blue Gayle Forman peacefultiesblue
