It is hard to believe that something that seems so permanent was once so different. Change. I guess that really is one thing you can count on. Ellen Hopkins More Quotes by Ellen Hopkins More Quotes From Ellen Hopkins I get so nervous when im around you i start to studder Ellen Hopkins nervous Is it wrong to leave relative security in favor of unknown risk at the side of someone you love? Ellen Hopkins someone-you-love favors risk It's just so hard to feel good, you know?" I do know. And more than that, it's just so incredibly hard to feel. (54) Ellen Hopkins feel-good knows feels My body Healed quickly. But the wound to my psyche was deep. Wide. First aid, too little, too late, left me hemorrhaging inside, the blood unstaunched by psychological bandage or love's healing magic. Eventually it scabbed over, a thick, ugly welt of memory. I work to conceal it, but no matter how hard I try, once in a while something makes me pick at it until the scarring bleeds. In my arms, Ashante cries, innocence ripped apart by circumstance. Bloodied by inhuman will. Time will prove a tourniquet. But she will always be at risk of infection. (124) Ellen Hopkins healing memories blood Always before, I just said no, left it solidly there. I waver now. I want to share everything with him. Want to know what he knows, feel what he feels, share the same space he's in. Ellen Hopkins space share want Because to tell you the truth, most of the time dying seems pretty much like my only means of escape Ellen Hopkins dying seems mean Then teach me how to not care about someone who was everything to me. All I want is to know she's okay. Is that too much to ask? Ellen Hopkins care too-much want Real love finds you once, if you're lucky. Ellen Hopkins good-luck lucky real My happiest memories have no place in the past; they are those I have yet to create. Ellen Hopkins memories past You believe this is a game, and you may be right. But if you think you can play it better than me, think again. Ellen Hopkins games believe thinking I really have to wonder who or what made Daddy become this way. Babies aren't born cruel or filled with sick desire. Evil is not intrinsic. It's fashioned. Ellen Hopkins daddy evil baby A breeze blows up, touching my cheek like a little child's kiss. It flutters a piece of paper. "Trash, out there? Must belong to one of us." We move closer, and when I reached for it, I find...... a perfect paper airplane. Ellen Hopkins airplane children moving And now life has become the future. Every moment of your life is lived for the future-you go to high school so you can go to college so you can get a good job so you can get nice house. Ellen Hopkins nice jobs school I am different. And I don't understand exactly how. And I don't understand just why. Ellen Hopkins different How can I explain purposely setting foot on a path so blatantly treacherous? Was the fun in the fall? Ellen Hopkins feet fun fall Smoke You stand infront of me, pretending to be solid, but you are nothing more than smoke and mirors. You said you'd never leave, that you would care for us forever, but now you claim you cannot stay? That you've been called away. When you go, who will i turn to when it all crashes down? Tell me who. Then tell me, how I can believe anone again, if all your promises have been lies. Ellen Hopkins forever believe lying I'll Stay ...leave ...me. ...I'll ...follow ...you. Ellen Hopkins leaving-me Might as Well Laugh ...remember ...when ...Life ...made ...sense Ellen Hopkins remember might laughing Once ...Why ...lie? ...when ...truth is ...the easier path Ellen Hopkins truth-is path lying Have to Find ...life ...is ...a— ...gamble ...after ...all. Ellen Hopkins gamble life-is
