like I am Alice in the Wonderland and have gotten too big for the room. Lauren Oliver More Quotes by Lauren Oliver More Quotes From Lauren Oliver I know some of you are Thinking maybe I deserved it. But before you start pointing Fringers, let me ask you Is what I did really so bad? So bad I deserved to die? So bad I deserved to die like that? Is what I did really much worse Then what anybody else does? Is it really so much worse Than what you do? Lauren Oliver let-me doe thinking With the cure, relationships are all the same, and rules and expectations are defined. Without the cure, relationships must be reinvented every day, languages constantly decoded and deciphered. Freedom is exhausting. Lauren Oliver cures language expectations The sparrows jumped before they knew how to fly, and they learned to fly only because they had jumped. Lauren Oliver sparrows She liked that word: we. It sounded warm and open, like a hug. Lauren Oliver warm hug That's the easy thing about falling: there is only one choice after that. Lauren Oliver choices easy fall I love you. Remember. And someday, I will find you again. Lauren Oliver someday love-you remember This is what amazes me: that people are new every day. That they are never the same. You must always invent them, and they must always invent themselves, too. Lauren Oliver people That's what time does: We stand stubbornly like rocks while it flows all around us, believing that we are immutable - and all the time we're being carved, and shaped, and whittled away. Lauren Oliver rocks doe believe Could it be? Samantha Kingston? Home? On a Friday?” I roll my eyes. “I don’t know. Did you do a lot of acid in the sixties? Could be a flashback.” “I was two years old in 1960. I came too late for the party.” He leans down and pecks me on the head. I pull away out of habit. “And I’m not even going to ask how you know about acid flashbacks.” “What’s an acid flashback?” Izzy crows. “Nothing,” my dad and I say at the same time, and he smiles at me. Lauren Oliver friday dad party No guest rooms.” I shake my head resolutely. “I want to be in a room room. A lived-in room. Lauren Oliver guests want rooms I'm used to a feeling of doubleness, of thinking one thing and having to do another, a constant tug-of-war. Lauren Oliver feelings war thinking For the first time in my life I actually feel sorry for Carol. I'm only seventeen years old, and I already know something she doesn't know: I know that life isn't life if you just float through it. I know that the whole point- the only point- is to find things that matter, and hold on to them, and fight for them, and refuse to let them go. Lauren Oliver fighting sorry years They told us love was a disease. They told us it would kill us in the end. For the very first time I realize, that this, too, might also be a lie. Lauren Oliver disease might lying She was mine before she was yours. Lauren Oliver mines I need to live my life in the light of their deaths. I need to live. Lauren Oliver living-my-life light needs It's the rule of the wilds. You must be bigger, and stronger, and tougher. A coldness radiates through me, a solid wall that is growing, piece by piece, in my chest. He doesn't love me. He never loved me. It was all a lie. "The old Lena is dead." I say, and then push past him. Each step is more difficult than the last; the heaviness fills me and turns my limbs to stone. You must hurt or be hurt. Lauren Oliver wall hurt lying I’ve never really had a party before.” “Why did you have one now?” I say, just to keep him talking. He gives a half laugh. “I thought if I had a party, you would come. Lauren Oliver party talking giving That’s a funny thing: you think, when awful things happen, everything else just stops, like you would forget to pee and eat and get thirsty, but it’s not really true. It’s like you and your body are two separate things, like your body is betraying you, chugging on, idiotic and animal, craving water and sandwiches and bathroom breaks while your world falls apart. Lauren Oliver animal fall thinking But that's the problem with love - it acts on you, works through you, resists your attempts to control. Lauren Oliver problem There's still always the possibility that I've gone totally, clinically cuckoo. But somehow I don't think so anymore. An article I once read said that crazy people don't worry about being crazy - that's the whole problem. Lauren Oliver crazy people thinking
