People who aren't addicts want to know why I became one. They ask whether I had a midlife crisis. I'm only speaking for myself now, but I've stopped asking why and how. It's all about surrender and acceptance. It doesn't matter why I am an addict.

Kevin Sessums

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I'm not denying Christ by not being Christian. I'm a theist, which involves expanding on the Christ narrative.

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Some people say you have to be a Christian to be saved. I had to... by Kevin Sessums

Some people say you have to be a Christian to be saved. I had to stop being Christian to be saved.

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I don't like the vulgarity of Oscars weekend, but it's also sweet. It's prom weekend for anyone who didn't experience the real prom: the nerds, gay, arty outsiders. Hollywood is high school with money.

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I haven't had sex in two and a half years. A guy I met in San Francisco gave me a sympathy blow job. It didn't really work. I said, "You're just doing this 'cause you feel sorry for me." We stopped in the middle.

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I find myself applying the addict's impulse to how I cruise. I don't look at the ass. If I see a hot guy walking towards me I look at his arm, and if he has a vein I fantasize about shooting up with him.

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I've done every other thing in life except intimacy. That's the aberration, the thing I've never had.

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To some people, knowledge and science are everything. To me, God... by Kevin Sessums

To some people, knowledge and science are everything. To me, God is everything I don't know.

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Sometimes if I am walking down the street and thinking about my panoply of God, Ganesha, Parvati [Ganesha's mother], I say "Lucifer," because he belongs in that panoply. I miss him. That's why I'm a theist.

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In Western culture, there's a dichotomy between the easy narratives of God and the Devil. I now believe in this greater overarching spiritual thing. We are the light and the dark, and have to own the darkness. It's part of us. It's not evil. It's needed. You need to own both of them to be whole. Absorb it, and live it as part of your life.

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One thing I learned in sobriety is to stop being judgmental, to always be discerning. When I drive, that will be my bumper sticker.

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I am a theist. I live life between that "a" and the "t." It's a v... by Kevin Sessums

I am a theist. I live life between that "a" and the "t." It's a vast little space.

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