The first time I saw her was in the courthouse, i just remember her staring at me and grinning. I took a deep breath and thought she was the scariest person I've ever seen. I was afraid. I could n’t look at her for the rest of the time I was there testifying. It was like she was … laughing and saying, ‘ Look at what I did. You ca n’t stop me. ’ … She just sat there and grinned.