There are few things harder than being born into the wrong body. David Levithan More Quotes by David Levithan More Quotes From David Levithan There's no way to release yourself from a memory. It ends when it wants to end, whether it's in a flash or long after you've begged it to stop. David Levithan want memories long This is not something insignificant. This is real. This is happening, and this is ours. David Levithan insignificant happenings real you’d think that silence would be peaceful. but really, it’s painful. David Levithan peaceful silence thinking I would always wait to take you home. David Levithan waiting home I'm not good at relationships I always manage to find the flaws sometimes in others but mostly my own. I foretell the ending then go and create the cause save myself and end up alone David Levithan flaws causes sometimes It is much harder to lie to someone's face. But. It is also much harder to tell the truth to someone's face. David Levithan telling-the-truth faces lying I had forgotten this about love: how the simple things- the turn away, the turn towards- could be so complicated, and how the complicated things- the stolen night, the right words- could be so simple. David Levithan simple forgotten night Maybe language is kind, giving us these double meanings. Maybe it's trying to teach us a lesson, that we can always be two things at once. David Levithan trying giving two I'm swimming in your cadences that you permeate my very language. David Levithan cadence swimming language I am so used to hints and mixed messages, saying things that might mean what they sort of sound like they mean. Games and contests, roles and rituals, talking in twelve languages at once so the true words won't be so obvious. I am not used to a plainspoken, honest truth. David Levithan games talking mean I see Nick's number. I debate whether to assign a name to his number. If I commit to that, then I will truly be heartbroken if he never calls me again; my heart will knot each and every time I use this phone and see his name in there. I would probably end up having to trash the phone entirely. David Levithan heartbroken names numbers healthy, adj. There are times when I'm alone that I think, This is it. This is actually the natural state. All I need are my thoughts and my small acts of creation and my ability to go or do whatever I want to go or do. I am myself, and that is the point. Pairing is a social construction. It is by no means necessary for everyone to do it. Maybe I'm better like this. Maybe I could live my life in my own world, and then simply leave it when it's time to go. David Levithan small-acts mean thinking So I said I wanted you to stay, even though nothing could stay the same. David Levithan said wanted And I told you: I think of a photograph you took of me, up in Montreal. You told me to jump in the air, so in the picture, my feet are off the ground. Later, I asked you why you wanted me to do that, and you told me it was the only way to get me to forget about the expression on my face. You were right. I am completely unposed, completely genuine. In my mind’s eye, I picture myself like that, reacting to you. David Levithan eye air thinking only adj. thats the dilemma isn't it? when you're single, there's the sadness and joy of only me. And when you're paired, there's the sadness and joy of only you. David Levithan dilemma sadness joy If goodness can't come from bad things, it makes bad things unbearable. David Levithan unbearable goodness ifs You leave the phone on beside you as you fall asleep. I sit in my bed and listen to your breathing, until I know you are safe, until I know you no longer need me for the night. David Levithan phones night fall I never know what you really want, if I can give it to you, or if I’m already too late. David Levithan want too-late giving By the time I got there, you’d already decided. And I quickly decided to let you decide. You were already seeing the rooms as ours, and that was enough for me. David Levithan decided enough rooms I say good-bye to the part of myself that misses him so much. David Levithan good-bye missing bye
