There is a stark difference between fear and uncertainty, Sarai. You fear nothing but are uncertain of everything. J.A. Redmerski More Quotes by J.A. Redmerski More Quotes From J.A. Redmerski It’s my future and my life and I can’t make myself live the way someone else wants me to. J.A. Redmerski my-future want way ...I watch her so much that I forget it's raining at all. J.A. Redmerski rain forget watches She sticks her tongue out at me and crosses her eyes. Not sure why that made me want to do her in the backseat, but to each his own, I guess. J.A. Redmerski tongue eye want Well, I’m glad you didn’t drown.” His eyes warm up with his face. I smile back at him. “Yeah, that would’ve sucked.” “Definitely. J.A. Redmerski i-smile eye faces It’s like irresistible poison: I’m mesmerized by the way it’s making me feel though it has the potential to crush my soul and I drink it down anyway. J.A. Redmerski crush poison soul Maybe you should get rid of me,” I whisper onto his lips. “Never,” he says, kissing me once softly. “You’re mine for as long as you breathe. J.A. Redmerski lips kissing long A real fighter never cries, never lets the weight of any blow bring him down. Except that final blow, the inevitable one, but even then they always go out like men. J.A. Redmerski real blow men I shattered that memory by going back there. Without realizing it until it was too late, I replaced that memory with the emptiness of that day. J.A. Redmerski emptiness too-late memories Depression is pain in its purest form. J.A. Redmerski form pain all I want to do is pull her against me and hold her until we both die. J.A. Redmerski dies want I’m not a follower. I never have been. But I’ll definitely become someone I’m not for a few hours if it’ll make me blend in rather than make me a blatant eye sore and draw attention. J.A. Redmerski followers eye attention My plant is probably dead." Camryn looks slightly surprised. "You have a plant?" I smile. "Yeah, her name's Georgia. J.A. Redmerski georgia names looks Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is you're going a lot faster and with less bumps in the way. J.A. Redmerski bumps live-in-the-moment memories It’s not only about sadness. In truth, sadness really has little to do with it. Depression is pain in its purest form and I would do anything to be able to feel an emotion again. Any emotion at all. Pain hurts, but pain that’s so powerful that you can’t feel anything anymore, that’s when you start to feel like you’re going crazy. J.A. Redmerski pain powerful hurt let yourself cry, OK? One of the worst feelings in the world is being unable to cry and eventually it…starts to make things darker. J.A. Redmerski cry feelings world I have to live and make my own choices, my own mistakes. You have to let me be me, even if i suck at it sometimes." - Adria J.A. Redmerski choices mistake sometimes Best friends, no matter what they do or how much they hurt you, it only hurts as much as it does because they are your best friend. And none of us are perfect. Mistakes were made for best friends to forgive; it’s what makes being a best friend official. J.A. Redmerski hurt perfect mistake But as I stood there dressed in a cute black pants suit and white button-up shirt and heels, I felt completely out of place. Not necessarily because of the clothes, but…I just don’t belong there. I can’t put my finger on it, but that Monday and the rest of that week when I woke up, got dressed and walked into that store, something was itching the back part of my consciousness. I couldn’t hear the actual words, but it felt like: This is your life, Camryn Bennett. This is your life. J.A. Redmerski white monday cute You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, and the blood in my veins. J.A. Redmerski soul missing blood I loved Ian in the now, the way he looked at me, how he made my stomach swim, how he held my hair when I was puking my guts up after eating a bad enchilada. That’s love. J.A. Redmerski swim hair way
