We walk alone through this world, but if we're lucky, we have a moment of belonging to something, to someone, that sustains us through a lifetime of loneliness. Paullina Simons More Quotes by Paullina Simons More Quotes From Paullina Simons Alexander knew that before he had light instead of darkness, he had to deserve light instead of darkness. Paullina Simons light deserve darkness Here, take this, she would say, take this, and tell me where he is. Tell me whether he's dead or alive, so I can walk as his widow or his wife. No one would, or could, tell her, and so she continued to cook, and to learn new things all the while searching for an answer among the outcasts. The way he carried his body, the way he walked in my life, Tatiana thought, declared that he was the only man I had ever loved, and he knew it. And until I was alone without him, I thought it was all worth it. Paullina Simons widows wife men Not bombs nor my broken heart can take away from me walking barefoot with you in jasmine June through the Field of Mars. Paullina Simons june broken heart Oh,to be walking through Leningrad white night after white night, the dawn to dusk all smelting together like platinum ore, Tatiana thought, turning away to the wall, again to the wall, the wall, as ever. Alexander, my nights, my days, my every thought. You will fall away from me in just a while, won't you, and I'll be whole again, and I will go on and feel for someone else, the way everyone does. But my innocence is forever gone. Paullina Simons wall night fall Tania, last time in Morozovo, I let you go, but not this time. This time we live together or we die together. Paullina Simons letting-you-go lasts together Please stop looking at me, she thought, afraid of his eyes and terrified of her own heart. Paullina Simons please eye heart He sent you to redeem me, to comfort me, and to heal me—and that’s just so far,” he added with a smile. Paullina Simons heal comfort The power you have over someone who loves you is greater than any other power you'll ever have. Paullina Simons greater love-you He is just protective over me-” “Not protective, Tania. Consumed. Paullina Simons consumed protective Shura...are you...in love with me?" "Turn to me," Alexander said. She turned. "Tatia, I worship you. I'm crazy in love with you. I want you to marry me. Paullina Simons worship-you crazy love-you Oh Alexander," she said, "what do you want from me..." "Everything!" he whispered fiercely. Paullina Simons tatiana-metanova want said Here I am, your one man circus freak show, having bled out for mother Russia, having desperately tried to get to you, now on top of you with this scourge marks, and you, who used to love me, who was sympathized, internalized, normalized everything, you are not allowed to turn away from me....this is what I am going to look like until the day I die. I can't get any peace from you ever unless you find away to make peace with this. Make peace with me. Or let me go for good. Paullina Simons russia mother men Whenever you're unsure of yourself, whenever you're in doubt, ask yourself three questions. What do you believe in? What do you hope for? but most important, ask yourself, what do you love? Paullina Simons important doubt believe Everything comes at a price. Everthing in your life. The question you have to ask yourself is, what price are you willing to pay? Paullina Simons willing asks pay This is days and days and months and years and all the minutes in between, just you me. Paullina Simons minutes months years Alexander smoked and watched her from his tree stump bench. What are you doing? she would ask him. Nothing, he would reply. Nothing but growing my pain into madness. Paullina Simons growing pain tree We thought the hard part was over—but we were wrong. Living is the hardest part. Figuring out how to live your life when you’re all busted up inside and out—there is nothing harder. Paullina Simons busted live-your-life hardest I know that sometimes the things we carry become too much for us. We are burned down, but somehow we have to pick ourselves up and keep going Paullina Simons burned too-much sometimes Do you see the Field of Mars, where I walked next to my bride in her white wedding dress, with red sandals in her hands, when we were kids?” “I see it well.” “We spent all our days afraid it was too good to be true, Tatiana,” said Alexander. “We were always afraid all we had was a borrowed five minutes from now.” Her hands went on his face. “That’s all any of us ever has, my love,” she said. “And it all flies by.” “Yes,” he said, looking at her, at the desert, covered coral and yellow with golden eye and globe mallow. “But what a five minutes it’s been. Paullina Simons eye kids hands Open your eyes, soldier,” Tatiana said fondly, caressing his face.“Are you hungry?” “I was hungry,” Alexander said. “But you fed me.” His body was shaking underneath his sheet. Paullina Simons body eye soldier