Well, I thought, last night I paid my dues. I faced death. Now I can stay. Mark Vonnegut More Quotes by Mark Vonnegut More Quotes From Mark Vonnegut The most radical, audacious thing to think is that there might be some point to working hard and thinking hard and reading hard and writing hard and trying to be of service Mark Vonnegut reading writing thinking We're here to get each other through this thing, whatever it is. Mark Vonnegut Art is lunging forward without certainty about where you are going or how to get there, being open to and dependent on what luck, the paint, the typo, the dissonance, give you. Without art, you're stuck with yourself as you are and life as you think life is. Mark Vonnegut giving art thinking Who but a brazen crazy person would go one-on-one with blank paper or canvas armed with nothing but ideas? Mark Vonnegut crazy paper ideas Reading and writing are in themselves subversive acts. What they subvert is the notion that things have to be the way they are, that you are alone, that no one has ever felt the way you have. Mark Vonnegut reading writing way Note to self: being Kurt's son, being an ex-mental patient, getting into Harvard, having written a book, and being a doctor are all things that in and of themselves do not make a life. If you lean on them too hard, you'll find that there's not much there. But if you add up a lot of things that aren't in and of themselves enough, it almost starts to add up to something. Mark Vonnegut doctors book son With mental illness the trick is to not take your feelings so seriously; you’re zooming in and zooming away from things that go from being too important to being not important at all. Mark Vonnegut mental-illness important feelings Having their feelings make sense is how people get their kicks. Mark Vonnegut kicks feelings people It's regrets that make painful memories. When I was crazy I did everything just right. Mark Vonnegut regret crazy memories Are people who have been crazy held to unfair standards?Of course, but it's not in your best interest to complain. If you're paranoid and people are looking at you funny it's best to let it pass. Psychotic people have an uncanny knack for making their own worst dreams come true. Depressing things happen to depressed people way beyond what you would expect from random distribution. Mark Vonnegut depressing crazy dream Colds, ulcers, flu, and cancer are things we get. Schizophrenia is something we are. Mark Vonnegut ulcers cancer flu Introverts almost never cause me trouble and are usually much better at what they do than extroverts. Extroverts are too busy slapping one another on the back, team building, and making fun of introverts to get much done. Extroverts are amazed and baffled by how much some introverts get done and assume that they, the extroverts, are somehow responsible. Mark Vonnegut causes team fun When I talk to the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) and other patient support groups, I take questions at the end. At one talk I was asked, "What's the difference between yourself and someone without mental illness?". At another talk I was asked, "How do you make the voices be not so mean?". I wish I knew. Mark Vonnegut differences voice mean I saw a study the other day showing that some atypical anti-psychotic was at least as good as mood stabilizers in preventing suicide. It's a very good thing to decrease suicide but we should care at least a little if I'm not killing myself because I feel better or if I just can't remember where I put the damn gun. Mark Vonnegut feel-better gun suicide None of us are entirely well, and none of us are irrecoverably sick. Mark Vonnegut wells sick Fear that I was very different from everyone else. Fear that deep down inside I was a shallow fraud, that after the revolution or after Jesus came down to straighten everything out, everyone from hippies to hard-hats would unfold and blossom into the beautiful people they were while I would remain a gnarled little wart in the corner, oozing bile and giving off putrid smells. Mark Vonnegut fear beautiful jesus And if you're lucky enough to survive going crazy and get back to the point where you can pass for normal, it builds a question into the rest of your life. You have to forgive people for wondering, 'How all right can he be?' Mark Vonnegut forgiving crazy people I'm not an expert on the Middle East or terrorism or the use of military force or politics. It's all I can do to know a little bit about how to help people raise their kids and what to do when they get sick. When a war happens, I just hope it gets over with quickly so that how we take care of children becomes more important again. Mark Vonnegut military war children The way I played music there was the way I wanted to farm, chop wood, cook, make love, raise children. Everything. A lo of it had to do with things I felt while I played. If only I could feel that sense of total absorption in what I was doing when I was doing other things. It was more than absorption, it was spontaneity, competence, a sense of grace and playfulness, of being in touch with an inexhaustible source of energy and beauty. Mark Vonnegut making-love grace children Put on all the armor of the Lord. Not just the pretty stuff. Mark Vonnegut armor lord stuff
