Your failures and your faults, they stick with you. They glob into ugly, cancerous growths inside you and make you want to die. Julie Anne Peters More Quotes by Julie Anne Peters More Quotes From Julie Anne Peters But I'm no hero. I had to keep my dirty little secret. The worst sin I committed was holding it in; letting the secret blacken me. Julie Anne Peters secret hero dirty Year after year. "Please don't make me go [to school]" "You have to go," Kim would say. "It's a new school, make a new start." "Sticks and stones." from Chip. Words will only kill you. Julie Anne Peters new-start years school My mother read that parents should spend quality time with their children. One way is to sign up for organized activities together. This month we're taking meditation to free the mind. Last month it was Rolfing. Have you ever Rolfed, Tone?" "Only after the school's shepherd's pie," I said. Julie Anne Peters mother children school Who becomes you? No one. No one should become me. When I die, I don't want my body or soul inhabited. I wouldn't wish me on anyone. Julie Anne Peters body soul wish I'm all she's got and if I don't make it this time . . ." You'll pass through the light. A ribbon of guilt twists my stomach. I'm all Kim and Chip have too. But the difference is, they'll be better off without me. Julie Anne Peters differences guilt light Never question the sanity of a woman who can render you defenseless with a look. Julie Anne Peters defenseless sanity looks I think about my choice. Either outcome is bleak. If I stay and live through high school, go to college, get a job, what will ever change? This blackness inside will never go away. I don't make friends; I'll always be alone. If I go, at least there's hope of peace. Chance of a new and better life on the other side. Julie Anne Peters college jobs school This is my vision-what I imagine I'll pass through on my way to the light. The blue sky, the clouds, the rays of light. Julie Anne Peters light blue clouds No one else knows I'm alive, which means they won't notice when I'm gone. Julie Anne Peters alive gone mean At times like this, I'm thankful I don't feel love. Julie Anne Peters feels I hated him. I hated them all. They made me hate myself even more than I already did. Julie Anne Peters hate-myself hate made But its not funny. Not to people who've been told they're losers their whole lives and believe they will never be anything else. Julie Anne Peters loser believe people My parents will be sad for a while, and they may even blame themselves, the way they do now. Eventually they'll come to peace with my decision. I hope they'll realize I'm finally at peace. Julie Anne Peters parent decision may I'm scared. What will tomorrow bring? It has to be better than today. It has to. Julie Anne Peters scared tomorrow today What was I afraid of, exactly? What other people would think? I guess, a little. But that wasn't what was stopping me from acting on my feelings. It was the intensity of them. The desire for her. I knew if I gave into it, I'd have to surrender myself completely. I'd lose all control. Everything I knew, everything I was, the walls I'd built up to protect myself all these years would come crashing down. I might get lost in the rubble. Yet, she made me feel alive in a way I'd only ever imagined I could feel. Bells, whistles, music. Julie Anne Peters wall years thinking Yeah, I loved her. I couldn't help it. She was my brother. Julie Anne Peters my-brother brother helping What's the point of living if you don't belong anywhere? Julie Anne Peters hate-the-world smurf ifs I close my eyes and black out the day. The exhaustion of living through it, surviving. Julie Anne Peters surviving black eye J_Doe032692 wrote: I am not a thin person. However this does not give people the right to taunt me, calling me ugly and worthless, telling me to kill myself because no one will ever want me, or to make up songs about why I am so fat and how much food I eat. NO ONE, I repeat, NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO HURT ANOTHER HUMAN BEING THIS BADLY. My throat constricts. The neck brace feels as if it's shrinking and cutting off my esophagus. I reach up and cover the words with my hand and the web site dissolves. I want to go. Now. Julie Anne Peters cutting hurt song And it’s more. It’s about getting past that question of whats wrong with me, to knowing there’s nothing wrong, that you were born this way. You're a normal person and a beautiful person and you should be proud of who you are. You deserve to live and live with dignity and show people your pride. Julie Anne Peters pride beautiful past
