And how can it be he's so in love with me? To grow up without love, and still have so much inside? Ellen Hopkins More Quotes by Ellen Hopkins More Quotes From Ellen Hopkins Six months since we met up again we are inseparable, an intricate weave. No longer do I believe this is a temporary fling. More like total commitment. More like I have walked down the aisle, holding hands with the monster. Ellen Hopkins believe hands commitment Clear. Cold. Empty. Like how I feel right now. Love is strange. One minute you’re jungle fever. The next you’re Artic winter. Ellen Hopkins fever winter love-is Innocence eroded into nightmare. All because of very bad touch. Love, corrupted. Ellen Hopkins innocence nightmare Falling in love with someone is the surest highway to hurt that I know. When the door to love opens, the window to control closes. Ellen Hopkins falling-in-love hurt doors You'll only find happy endings in books. Some books. Ellen Hopkins sleight-of-hand happy-endings book Funny how when your life is mostly bullshit, you turn off feeling. Sometimes it's hard to turn it back on again. Ellen Hopkins bullshit feelings sometimes It was body rush After body rush, intensity building. Touch me there. Ellen Hopkins intensity building body Paradise A concept embraced by almost every culture. A land of peace and harmony. Some say it doesn't belong to the earth, that there is no Shangri-la, no utopian wilderness for the living. Ellen Hopkins land earth culture Love is Chocolate The unprocessed kind. Dark. Bitter. But always with the promise of sweet perfection. All it takes is sugar- that certain someone's kiss, flavored with possibility. If Dani has taught me anything, it's that life is brimming with possibilities. Every single day brings choices. Ellen Hopkins kissing dark sweet Commitment means losing yourself to gain something temporary. Nothing lasts. Not looks. Not love. Ellen Hopkins perfect mean commitment No one teaches you how to walk away from someone who you know loves you. NO one teaches you how to say good-bye. Ellen Hopkins who-you-know love-you bye I don’t think God has a gender. I don’t think God hates gays or Democrats, and I don’t think you have to be Born Again to find your way to Heaven. I believe God expects us to care for one another, even those who are different. God wants us to be good stewards of this planet, and that means not wasting or violating its resources. Most of all, it means not blowing it up. Especially not in God’s name. Ellen Hopkins hate mean believe crawling up into daddy's lap when dad was still DADDY nodding my head against his chest soaking in the comfort of his heart LISTENING to the thump...thump somewhere beneath muscle and breastbone I remember his arms their sublime ENCIRCLING and the shawdow of his voice "I love you, little girl. Put away your bad dreams. Daddy's here" I put them away, Until Daddy became my nightmare that one that came HOME from work everyday and instead of picking me up, chased me far far away Ellen Hopkins dad girl dream I need to capture my sprite with trembling hands. Except I could crush her. Wonder how many small things of beauty - flowers, seashells, dragonflies - have met such a demise. Wonder how much fragile love has collapsed beneath the weight of confession. Ellen Hopkins crush flower hands Can a dream be wrong? Aren't dreams God's way of telling you things? Ellen Hopkins dream way Forever made that kiss stand out in my mind, touch my heart, make me remember a kiss so tender. Ellen Hopkins kissing forever heart Perfection I've lived with the pretense of perfection for seventeen years. Give my room a cursory inspection, you'd think I have OCD. But it's only habit and not obsession that keeps it all orderly. Of course, I don't want to give the impression that it's all up to me. Ellen Hopkins giving years thinking The only thing about myself I know for sure is that I don't know anything. Ellen Hopkins knows Anger requires energy, something I don't dare waste on what cannot be altered. Ellen Hopkins dare waste energy I wish I were worthy of his love. (Any love.)I should tell him to run. But I can't. I need him. Ellen Hopkins wish running needs