For me, every single thing I do seems to be about the process of letting go because that's what I so desperately need to do with so many things: with fear, with what people think of me, and all these things I've worried about my whole life. John Grant More Quotes by John Grant More Quotes From John Grant I'm angry because I was so scared for so many years about just being myself. John Grant being myself being-myself angry I love a lot of different styles, but my heart belongs in electronic music. John Grant music different heart love I overthink everything. John Grant everything I'm not saying that I don't have skills. I'm saying I don't feel like I can use my skills to achieve self-esteem. I feel like it's cheating. I think that I should have self-esteem simply because I am a human being who deserves love and deserves everything just as much or just as little as everyone else. John Grant i-am feel love cheating I can't create music if I'm wearing a mask and not being myself, and that was the problem with The Czars. John Grant myself being-myself music problem Do you know the solo at the end of 'Why Don't You Love Me Any More?' that sounds like a chainsaw breaking through? That is what I can't do with my voice. That's when you hear how painful this has been to me. John Grant love-me me you love I suppose my ideal brain food is learning languages. John Grant ideal learning brain food Being in school, whenever I laughed or smiled, I would turn to find someone staring at me with this terrible hatred and disgust. I had to control everything - control my voice, control my facial expressions, control my hair and my clothes, and where I walked and where I sat - at every moment. I think that drove me to terrible anxiety. John Grant me moment hair school I spend a lot of my time just looking at words and grammar and writing things down that I don't know. John Grant words looking down time I was so ashamed of who I was. And I also felt like an outcast in gay society as well because I wasn't good-looking enough; my body wasn't good enough. John Grant good-looking good gay society My mother was a very sweet soul and a beautiful person, but she had a lot of fear. John Grant soul mother fear beautiful I feel like, every single decision I make and every single album I make, it's all about letting go. Letting go of the past and just getting on with it. John Grant feel single decision past People have always painted me like a pessimist, like somebody who sees the glass half-empty. But I think the fact that I keep showing up and saying, 'No, there must be a way for me to live in this world,' that shows I'm an eternal optimist. John Grant think me people world When I reached my senior year in high school, I fell into a hole that took a couple of decades to get out of. John Grant high year high-school school Becoming a musician was all about escape. It was about getting away from the foulness that was me. John Grant escape away about me That inner narrative - the desire to understand the way I am - never really switches off. John Grant i-am never understand way I know I'm likeable, but living with me is different. Yes, I can be charming. That desire to please people and learning what to do to charm their socks off is something many of us do. But you get into a relationship, and the party's over at some point. They see the real you. John Grant me you learning relationship The first 20 years had such a profound effect on me, I spent the next 20 dealing with them. John Grant first me next years Reykjavik has a mixture of southern and northern mentality. There's a laid-back, relaxed attitude but also the feeling things are going to get done. John Grant feeling things done attitude Icelanders love to speak English. Their English is a joy to hear because of how colloquial and idiomatic it is, but they appreciate your efforts with Icelandic. John Grant appreciate speak joy love
