I don't think I'm alone in this: I'm obsessed with trying to not only be happy but maintain happiness, but my definition of happiness is skewed more towards ecstasy rather than contentment.

Mitski

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I have a very conveniently photographic memory of emotions - it's overwhelming, because things don't fade for me.

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You can be heartbroken about a relationship but also, from it, realize you are you, and you're okay with who you are or where you came from.

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I think my whole identity is formed around not knowing where I'm from. It might even be that I find comfort in that confusion.

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If I ever found a place where I belonged, that in itself would be an identity crisis to me.

place me crisis identity

Music was the one thing that was just mine, and no one could take it from me. I created it, dictated it, and it made me not able to let go of it.

let-go go me music

I always have strong urges to sabotage myself. Whenever someone says they like something about my music, I tend to not want to do that anymore. It's not even that I don't like it anymore: it's that I keep trying to find ways for people to dislike me.

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When you're doing something you're not used to, you kind of realize that you're still a kid: even though the whole world around you sees you as an adult and you're expected to act like an adult, you still haven't actually grown up.

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I'm not an innovator.

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Being an outsider makes you a really good writer.

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I think people don't realize how little of being an artist is making art.

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On tour, people know that if they ever ask me what I want to eat, I will always say Asian food. I'm becoming a stereotype, but it's what I want to eat. I want to eat rice.

know me food people

I have my privileges, but I do feel like at every turn there is such resistance. Things seem to take so much longer for me to do. I have to say things 10 times instead of once. I have to knock on 10 different doors instead of two. For everything. All the time. I feel like I'm not taken seriously.

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I know for a fact that I'm problematic. I shouldn't be looked to for any kind of guidance.

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Honestly, in the music business, it's all about being cool or being the newest thing or being the 'It' person, and I've tried really hard to be what is expected of me or what would be advantageous to my career, and I just reached the point where I said, 'No, I'm an emotional loser. I can't pretend to not care.'

cool me music business

I really like The Cars. They're just so over the top and super pop, but I don't feel guilty. I'm proud of all the music I listen to.

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Oftentimes, the most important decisions I make are the ones I don't put much thought into.

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When you're an adult, things mellow out. I think when you're a teenager and you are sad and the world is ending, everything is about that one sadness.

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I don't care about making anything new. I make music to express an emotion, and if the emotion is nostalgic, so be it.

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When I started making music, I was like, 'This is something I can believe I was meant to do.'

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Growing up, I never really felt like anything was my own. I moved a lot, and I never belonged anywhere.

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