I shattered that memory by going back there. Without realizing it until it was too late, I replaced that memory with the emptiness of that day.

J.A. Redmerski

Categorized in : Memories Too Late Emptiness

His face spreads into a warm smile. “As a matter of fact, no, I have never slept under the stars – are you gettin’ all romantic on me, Camryn Bennett?” He looks at me with a playful sideward stare.

stars matter looks

Never thought I’d intentionally sleep on a bathromm floor next to a toilet while sober, but I meant it when I said I would sleep anywhere with her.

toilets next sleep

I believe there’s someone out there for everyone,” he {Isaac} says, “and when you meet that person, sometimes you know right away they are who you were meant to be with. And sometimes, years can go by before you let yourself believe that the feeling you’ve had about a person for so long, is actually love. And what a waste that is.

long believe years

When we pull away, he rests his hand on my thigh pressed next to his and we ride like that for a long time; the only time he moves his hand is to take better control of a sharp curve or to adjust the music, but he always puts it right back. And I always want him to.

curves hands moving

I believe that no matter what happens, or where we go, or if there's an afterlife, that we'll always be connected. Not even death can make me forget you, or forget that I love you.

afterlife love-you believe

I tried to will them with my super mental powers so he’d put them around my waist, but apparently I had no super mental powers.

mental-power

To love someone so deeply means also that it will hurt a thousand times more when he disappoints or leaves you

disappoint hurt mean

I think it was the one thing I didn’t like about him or about guys in general: when a girl says she doesn’t want to talk about it, the truth is that she usually does. I wanted him to pry it out of me. Of course, I would’ve pretended to be a little angry that he didn’t just leave me alone, but eventually I would’ve told him, when I was tired of pretending.

tired girl thinking

Coincidence is just the conformist term for fate. by J.A. Redmerski

Coincidence is just the conformist term for fate.

fate term coincidence

Well, everybody needs help feeling alive again every once in a while.” “No,” she says seriously, and my gaze falls back on hers, “I didn’t say again, Andrew; for making me feel alive for the first time.

feelings fall needs

Laugh, I Nearly Died," Andrew answers. "You've probably never hea... by J.A. Redmerski

Laugh, I Nearly Died," Andrew answers. "You've probably never heard that one before.

andrew answers laughing

I think when you fall in love, like true love, it’s love for life. All the rest is just experiences and delusions.

love-life falling-in-love thinking

I could die in this bed with him right now, wrapped in his arms and I would never know that I had died.

arms bed right-now

Parents have this twisted belief that anyone under the age of about twenty simply can’t know what love is, like the age to love is assessed in the same way the law assesses the legal age to drink. They think that the ‘emotional growth’ of a teenager’s mind is too underdeveloped to understand love, to know if it’s ‘real’ or not.

teenager real love

And when someone grows up knowing so little of what real love feels like, whether from family, or friends, or the love of a companion, that person starts to believe that they weren’t meant to be loved, that good things will never happen to them. They start to believe that whenever something good does happen, it’s inevitable that something bad will come along to replace it.

growing-up real believe

He never leaves my side. And I know he never will. by J.A. Redmerski

He never leaves my side. And I know he never will.

knows sides

To lovers and dreamers and anyone who hasn’t truly experienced ei... by J.A. Redmerski

To lovers and dreamers and anyone who hasn’t truly experienced either.

dreamer lovers

What compels any of us to do the things we do when deep down a part of us just wants to break free from it all?

deep-down break want

I don't know myself. I don't know what I want or how I feel or how I should feeland I don't think I ever really have.

should want thinking

Two people unable to cry finally cry together and in the world en... by J.A. Redmerski

Two people unable to cry finally cry together and in the world ended today, we would be fulfilled.

together two people