That inner narrative - the desire to understand the way I am - never really switches off. John Grant More Quotes by John Grant More Quotes From John Grant I'm angry because I was so scared for so many years about just being myself. John Grant beingmyselfbeing-myselfangry For me, every single thing I do seems to be about the process of letting go because that's what I so desperately need to do with so many things: with fear, with what people think of me, and all these things I've worried about my whole life. John Grant mefearlifepeople I love a lot of different styles, but my heart belongs in electronic music. John Grant musicdifferentheartlove I overthink everything. John Grant everything I'm not saying that I don't have skills. I'm saying I don't feel like I can use my skills to achieve self-esteem. I feel like it's cheating. I think that I should have self-esteem simply because I am a human being who deserves love and deserves everything just as much or just as little as everyone else. John Grant i-amfeellovecheating I can't create music if I'm wearing a mask and not being myself, and that was the problem with The Czars. John Grant myselfbeing-myselfmusicproblem Do you know the solo at the end of 'Why Don't You Love Me Any More?' that sounds like a chainsaw breaking through? That is what I can't do with my voice. That's when you hear how painful this has been to me. John Grant love-memeyoulove I suppose my ideal brain food is learning languages. John Grant ideallearningbrainfood Being in school, whenever I laughed or smiled, I would turn to find someone staring at me with this terrible hatred and disgust. I had to control everything - control my voice, control my facial expressions, control my hair and my clothes, and where I walked and where I sat - at every moment. I think that drove me to terrible anxiety. John Grant memomenthairschool I spend a lot of my time just looking at words and grammar and writing things down that I don't know. John Grant wordslookingdowntime I was so ashamed of who I was. And I also felt like an outcast in gay society as well because I wasn't good-looking enough; my body wasn't good enough. John Grant good-lookinggoodgaysociety My mother was a very sweet soul and a beautiful person, but she had a lot of fear. John Grant soulmotherfearbeautiful I feel like, every single decision I make and every single album I make, it's all about letting go. Letting go of the past and just getting on with it. John Grant feelsingledecisionpast People have always painted me like a pessimist, like somebody who sees the glass half-empty. But I think the fact that I keep showing up and saying, 'No, there must be a way for me to live in this world,' that shows I'm an eternal optimist. John Grant thinkmepeopleworld When I reached my senior year in high school, I fell into a hole that took a couple of decades to get out of. John Grant highyearhigh-schoolschool Becoming a musician was all about escape. It was about getting away from the foulness that was me. John Grant escapeawayaboutme I know I'm likeable, but living with me is different. Yes, I can be charming. That desire to please people and learning what to do to charm their socks off is something many of us do. But you get into a relationship, and the party's over at some point. They see the real you. John Grant meyoulearningrelationship The first 20 years had such a profound effect on me, I spent the next 20 dealing with them. John Grant firstmenextyears Reykjavik has a mixture of southern and northern mentality. There's a laid-back, relaxed attitude but also the feeling things are going to get done. John Grant feelingthingsdoneattitude Icelanders love to speak English. Their English is a joy to hear because of how colloquial and idiomatic it is, but they appreciate your efforts with Icelandic. John Grant appreciatespeakjoylove
