You've been captive for so long that you don't even realize you want freedom anymore. Lauren DeStefano More Quotes by Lauren DeStefano More Quotes From Lauren DeStefano Don't you miss it?" I say. "Being free." He laughs. Lauren DeStefano being-free missing laughing For males twenty-five is the fatal age. For women it's twenty. We are all dropping like flies. Lauren DeStefano males twenties age On tiptoes the redhead wouldn't even reach my shoulders; she is clearly too young to be a bride. And the willowy girl is too forlorn. And I am too unwilling. Yet here we are. Lauren DeStefano forlorn tiptoes girl My worries always lead to dungeons; I can't imagine a worse thing than to be imprisoned for the rest of one's life, especially with so few years to enjoy what little there is. Lauren DeStefano dungeons worry years I can hear my brother's voice in my head. Your problem is that you're too emotional. But how can I not be emotional, Rowan? How can I not care? Lauren DeStefano emotional voice brother You’re insane, you know that?” he says. “It’s the only thing keeping me afloat,” I say. Lauren DeStefano insane knows I can almost see what Gabriel meant when he asked, 'What has the free world got that you can’t get here?' Almost. Freedom, Gabriel. That’s what you can’t get here. Lauren DeStefano free-world gabriel world None of the wives mention the security guards by the door, who will probably tackle us to the ground if we try to leave without our husbands. Lauren DeStefano security-guards husband doors Tell freedom I said hello.' 'If I happen to see it, I will. Lauren DeStefano hello happens said Rhine. The river that, somewhere out there, has broken free. Lauren DeStefano somewhere-out-there broken rivers A party in the orange grove. The pain on Linden's face is immediate. I am unwavering. He has cost me more pain than I will ever be able to repay. Lauren DeStefano orange pain party Poor kid,' Jenna says, and rolls her eyes toward me for a moment. Then she returns to her book. 'She doesn't even understand what kind of place this is. Lauren DeStefano eye kids book And if I have to die trying, I will get out of here. Lauren DeStefano dies ifs trying I used to have only one name; it used to mean something. Lauren DeStefano used names mean Gabriel's voice can reach me anywhere. Even in a hurricane. Lauren DeStefano gabriel hurricanes voice In the distance I see a lighthouse. The light washes over us and continues on its rotation. This time, I don't know where the light will guide us. Lauren DeStefano rotation distance light And then I wonder, does my brother think of me this way? We entered this world together, one after the other, beats in a pulse. But I will be first to leave it. That's what I've been promised. When we were children, did he dare to imagine an empty space beside him where I then stood giggling, blowing soap bubbles through my fingers? When I die, will he be sorry that he loved me? Sorry that we were twins? Maybe he already is. Lauren DeStefano brother sorry children Do you know what my father used to say?" I ask her. "He used to say that songs had a heart. A crescendo that can make all your blood rush from your head to your toes. Lauren DeStefano heart song father ...maybe hope isn't such a bad thing. Maybe it's what keeps us together. Lauren DeStefano bad-things together There's a sort of dead passion in him. A spark that, had he more years to live, would be a wildfire. Lauren DeStefano passion would-be years