It’s tough to get out of bed; I know that myself. You can lie there for an hour and a half without thinking anything, just worrying about what the day holds and knowing that you won’t be able to deal with it.

Ned Vizzini

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I want to live but I want to die. What do I do? by Ned Vizzini

I want to live but I want to die. What do I do?

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So now live for real, Craig. Live. Live. Live. Live. by Ned Vizzini

So now live for real, Craig. Live. Live. Live. Live.

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I want my brain to slide back into the slot it was meant to be in, rest there the way it did before the fall of last year, back when I was young, witty, and my teachers said I had incredible promise.

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We wear our problems diffrently by Ned Vizzini

We wear our problems diffrently

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You all right, man?' This should be my name. I could be like a super hero: You All Right Man. Ah...' I stumble. Don't bug Craig,' Ronny is like. 'He's in the Craig zone. He's Craig-ing out.

hero names men

Some days I woke up and got out of bed and brushed my teeth like any normal human being; some days I woke up and laid in bed and looked at the ceiling and wondered what the hell the point was of getting out of bed and brushing my teeth like any normal human being.

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It's such a silly little thing, the heart. by Ned Vizzini

It's such a silly little thing, the heart.

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I know a lot of famous people didn't do well at school, like James Brown; he dropped out in fifth grade to be an entertainer, I respect that... but that's not going to be me. I'm not going to be able to do anything but work as hard as possible all the time and compete with everyone I know all the time to make it.

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Do you even know who the enemy is?" "I think... it's me". by Ned Vizzini

Do you even know who the enemy is?" "I think... it's me".

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That's the number one thing I hear about humans. You have all these choices, so you're confused all the time, and you think so much that you're never happy.

confused numbers thinking

Misfortune is no excuse for cruelty. by Ned Vizzini

Misfortune is no excuse for cruelty.

cruelty no-excuses excuse

That's worst than gonerreha, man! by Ned Vizzini

That's worst than gonerreha, man!

worst men

That's what gets me through the day. Knowing that I could do it. That I'm strong enough to do it and I can get it done.

strong done knowing

One thing I've learnt recently: how to think nothing. Here's the trick: don't have any interest in the world around you, don't have any hope for the future, and be warm.

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I should be a success and I'm not and other people- younger people- are. Younger people than me are on TV and getting their lives in order. I'm still a nobody. When am I going to not be a nobody?

tvs order people

They're sort of ancillary anyway, friends. I mean, they're important -- everybody knows that; the TV tells you so -- but they come and go. You lose one friend, you pick up another.

tvs important mean

I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living. by Ned Vizzini

I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living.

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And when you say the truth you get stronger. by Ned Vizzini

And when you say the truth you get stronger.

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They've spent alot of money on me. I'm ashamed. by Ned Vizzini

They've spent alot of money on me. I'm ashamed.

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I'm jealous of her. Can you be jealous of your mom for being able to handle things? I couldn't take a day off, take a dog to the vet, and cook dinner. That's like three times too much stuff for me to get done in one day. How am I ever going to have my own house?

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