It’s tough to get out of bed; I know that myself. You can lie there for an hour and a half without thinking anything, just worrying about what the day holds and knowing that you won’t be able to deal with it.

Ned Vizzini

Categorized in : Thinking Lying Knowing

We're all animals, high school is animals, but some of us are more animal than others. Like in 'Animal Farm,' which I read, all animals are created equal, but some are more equal than others? Here in the real world, all equals are created animal, but some are more animal than others.

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real animal school

I like how you don't hide your problems like everyone else, and I don't have to hide mine when I'm around you.

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funny-story mines problem

If you can't get out of bed for long enough, people come and take your bed away

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bed long people

I don't-" I shake my head. (...) "What? What were you going to say?" This is another trick of shrinks. They never let you stop in midthought. If you open your mouth, they want to know exactly what you had the intention of saying.

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intention mouths want

I'm glad you came here and got the help you needed," Neil says, and he shakes my hand in that way that people do in here to remind themselves that you're the patient and they're the doctor/volunteer/ employee. They like you, and they genuinely want you to do better, but when they shake your hand you feel that distance, that slight disconnect because they know that you're still broken somewhere, that you might snap at any moment.

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doctors distance hands

Dad nods, looks me dead in the eyes; slowly and regretfully, he banishes all the smiling and joking from his face, and for once he's just my dad, watching his son who has fallen so low.

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dad eye son

People don't make good Anchors, though, Craig. They change.

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anchors people

Of course I wasn't abused. If I were; things would be so simple. I'd have a reason to for being in a shrinks office. I'd have a justification and something to work on. The world wasn't going to give me something that tidy.

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office simple giving

You want to play video games twenty-four hours a day?" "Or watch. I just want to not be me. Whether it's sleeping or playing video games or riding my bike or studying. Giving my brain up. That's what's important.

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games play sleep

The stuff adults tell you not to do is the easiest.

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adults stuff

I'm going to be here until I'm cured?" "Life is not cured, Mr. Gilner. Life is managed".

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life-is

I was never big on rage.' 'Why?' "It's so much more angry in my head than it could ever be outside.

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angry rage bigs

Relationships change even more than people. It's like two people changing. It's exponentially more volatile. Especially two teenagers.

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teenager two people

See, when you mess something up, you learn for the next time. It's when people compliment you that you're in trouble. That means they expect you to keep it up.

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compliments-you mean people

Nobody had told me I was common.

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common

its hard to talk when you want to kill yourself

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above-and-beyond conjunctions want

I eat not because I want to, not because I have to overcome anything, not to prove myself to anyone, but because it's there. I eat because that's what people do. And somehow when the food is put in front of you by an institution, when there's a large gray force behind it and you don't have to thank anyone for it, you have the animal instinct to make it disappear.

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overcoming animal people

I don't owe people anything, and I don't have to talk to them any more than I feel I need to.

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feels people needs

Every tounge bit had another word to say.

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bits

Things to do today: 1) Breathe in. 2) Breathe out.

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things-to-do breathe today